This is what it's like to be me

Wake up in the morning,
Reach for the remote.
Don't know if today I'll sink or float.
Choke down some toast,
Force down some tea.
This is what it's like to be me.

Take my morning meds,
Think about a shower,
Watch the time go by, hour after hour.
Answer some e-mails,
Watch some tv,
This is what it's like to be me.

Maybe get dressed,
Maybe spend the day in bed,
Maybe spend my time with hot packs surrounding my head.
Take more pills,
Wonder how tomorrow will be,
This is what it's like to be me.

I live my life,
Day by day, hour by hour,
And I try to never let my mood get sour.
I don't live in the future,
I don't know how it will be,
This is what it's like to be me.

I deal with things,
As they come my way,
My life will someday be better, I pray.
But this is my life,
This is my fight,
And I know one way or another things will be alright.

I have faith in myself
And I have faith in the unknown
I have faith in the kindness and peace the world has shown.
I fight for myself,
I fight to be free.
This is what it's like to be me.

(I don't remember when exactly I wrote this but I think it was sometime in the spring of 2004 when I was seeing a new doctor and a lot of new medications.)